Monday, January 30, 2012

"I'm Grateful"

(by Yolanda Adams) I'm Grateful - Day By Day

I'm Grateful by Yolanda Adams on Grooveshark

This past week has been very long & tough at times, yet it has been so good at the same time. I'll share more about some it later, but for now I am grateful for...

  1. Being referred to as "our Amy" by my adorable little neighbor
  2. The chance to hang out with the sweetest, snuggliest baby boy
  3. My uncle's wise words of advice
  4. Additional words of wisdom from my pastor
  5. Super supportive {& praying!} friends
  6. Romans 8:28
  7. A conversation leading to restoration
  8. Cupcakes made by my baby girl
  9. The godly legacy that my high school pastor leaves behind
  10. The chance for Chris to say goodbye to his grandma before she passed away
  11. The opportunity for him to spend several days with his friends & family in Dallas
  12. Another safe trip far, far away with my dad!
  13. 80 mph roads
  14. Knitting on the trip without getting carsick {on the interstate, at least}
  15. My cousin Brandy finding a great guy to spend her life with
  16. Another opportunity for me to visit with family that I don't get to see very often
  17. Seat warmers in Dad's car when it's 23° outside
  18. My friend "Angels" {ü} & her willingness to take care of my baby girl when Chris (unexpectedly) had to go out of town for the entire weekend (after I had already left on my trip)
  19. Cody already having plans to stay with Alex for the weekend
  20. My wonderful neighbor Kristi taking care of my crazy puppy while we were all gone
  21. Staying up {way too late} with my baby girl when I got home {I love that she wanted to tell me every detail about her weekend, & it was totally worth a little less sleep!}
  22. My own pillow!
  23. My church body meeting each others' needs {though I wasn't there to witness it, I heard about it from several people ~ & it makes my heart happy!}
  24. The time to prepare my Bible study lesson during a somewhat crazy week
  25. Lunch with my baby girl {I let her stay home today, because she wasn't feeling well when she woke up. She went back to bed until 11:45...I'm thinking she was tired ~ see #696!}

What's on your list today?


Friday, January 27, 2012

"Dance Me Around the Room"

(by Trent Wagler and The Steel Wheels) Dance Me Around the Room - Red Wing

I am about to head out on a 12 hour drive to New Mexico with my dad today! This will be the 4th trip of this sort since May, so I'd say his new Camaro is quite broken in now! We're going up there for another cousin's wedding tomorrow, & we'll drive the 12 hours back on Sunday. That's a lot of time in the car, huh?! {I'm going to try knitting today & hope to not get carsick. That could be a big mistake...We'll see how it goes!} Times like this are when I wish we lived closer to our family, but the drive is totally worth it!

Anyways, today's song is for a young woman named Sarah. I've never met her in person, but we have been united by our fight against Ocular Melanoma. I thought I'd share the following video about her upcoming play. It's a cancer play that's different from any other cancer play.

If you (or someone you know) would be interested in supporting this play, check out Sarah & the Dinosaur's Kickstarter page.

I probably won't be around for the next few days. I hope you have a super great weekend! <3 Amy

p.s. If you haven't given me your opinion on my last post, I'd really appreciate you taking a look & getting back to me! And if you weren't sure what I was showing you in the picture, I've added a little clarification! :)

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

"Hey Jessie"

(Jesse Theme Song by Debby Ryan)

Jessie Theme Song by Debby Ryan on Grooveshark

OK, friends, I need a little advice...

At the risk of sounding terribly shallow, I'm having a huge internal debate about cutting my hair. I know, it's just hair. It'll grow back. I shouldn't make such a big deal about it. I know all that, but a haircut is not a decision that I take lightly. It all goes back to the summer of 1980...

I was five years old, and my mom let me get a terrible haircut. The way I remember it, I said that I wanted my hair to look like Kerry's. I have no idea why I wanted it like my brother's. I was probably sick of tangles. I don't know, but I can't believe she allowed it. She loved it & called it a "cute little pixie cut".

Oh, y'all, it was awful.

Awful, I tell ya.

There have only been three times since then that I've had more than a trim. No lie. And two out of the three times, it was still at least shoulder-length. I had a bob in middle school, and it was just below my chin back then. So other than occasionally growing out my bangs & cutting them again, I haven't done anything drastic for over 30 years.

Have I mentioned that I don't like change? That's part of the reason for my lack of cutting. I also don't really know how to fix hair, so I stick with a style for a long time. {Every other time that I go in for a trim, I ask Jessie ~my hairdresser, & the reason for the song today~ to please tell me when my hair is way out of style...} Another reason for the lack of haircuts is the fact that I tend to not like trends until they're on their way out, hair trends included {like The Rachel that everybody had except for me!} But my main reason for not cutting it is because of that awful haircut when I was five. I don't have a problem with short hair on other people. It's just on me that's the problem.

So my situation now is that because of my little B12 issue a year or so ago, I lost a lot of hair. I now have a massive amount of new growth that is getting to be a pain. It causes problems when I'm trying to blow dry it, & it sticks out in little fried looking fringes (especially on humid days, which is just about every day around these parts). The ends are thin & scraggly, because there's only about 1/2 the thickness I normally have.

I usually have it trimmed every few months, but it'll probably take another year for it to reach the length of my current longest layer. I plan on making an appointment with Jessie in the next couple of weeks, & I'm trying to figure out what to have her do to it. I don't know if I should get it cut to the length of the new growth, just do what I've been doing (trim it & slowly grow it out), or meet somewhere in the middle. This is where you come in! I need your help!! I can't believe I'm going to do this, but I'm going to swallow my pride & show y'all...So you have an idea of what I'm talking about, I had my baby girl take a couple of pictures:
[to clarify: the picture on the left is the new growth, compared to the length of the rest of my hair on the right]
{She wanted me to tell y'all that I actually smiled for these. Ya. I'm lame!}

OK, what do you think? I really need your input on this one. Please, please, please give me your suggestions! & if you're one of my IRL friends who reads my blog but never/rarely comments, please do so this time.
Or email me.
Text me.
Call me.
Drag me to the hair salon.

I'll stop begging now. You know what to do... ♥


Monday, January 23, 2012

"Soak it Up"

(by Warren Barfield) Soak It Up - Warren Barfield

Soak It Up by Warren Barfield on Grooveshark

Isn't this song super?! If you didn't listen to it, you totally should! It really sums up what "One Thousand Gifts" is all about. There is so much goodness in this song, but I especially love the encouragement to enjoy all our days before all our days end. Today I am thankful for...

  1. Clear scans!
  2. My new Bible! {how in the world did I forget to put it on last weeks' list?!}
  3. The completion of my first scarf
  4. Homemade tamales
  5. The opportunity to assist in making homemade tamales
  6. A new semester of midweek studies at church
  7. Knitting tutorials on youtube
  8. Crock pots
  9. A book series that I get to borrow from Julie
  10. Peanut butter & chocolate {together} ♥
  11. Costco
  12. Emails from strangers that make me chuckle
  13. The opportunity to help a neighbor that I don't know very well
  14. Said neighbor's son telling me that I'm a nice mom :)
  15. Marcie {who had a birthday on Friday!}
  16. My sis-in-law Wendy {who also had a birthday on Friday!}
  17. A chance for Laura to come over & drink coffee with me
  18. Texts that say, "Hide it under a bushel? NO!" {yes, you are funny, Marcie!}
  19. A crop night at Magi's
  20. A lazy Saturday
  21. My kids hanging out together {even when their friends are over}
  22. Praying with my Moms In Touch ladies again
  23. Creepy old neighbor guy not seeing me at the store
  24. Finding a $13 dress for my cousin's wedding this weekend
  25. Teenage girls encouraging each other with scripture {Seriously, these girls are amazing! I ♥ them so much! As a couple of girls shared some struggles in small group last night, other girls were looking up scripture that applied to their situations. I love that!}

What are you soaking up in your life today?


Saturday, January 21, 2012


(by Daniel Bashta) Heaven - The Sounds of Daniel Bashta

Heaven by Daniel Bashta on Grooveshark

I don't really have much to say today {Shocked?! I'm sure!} I've already mentioned most of the blogworthy stuff earlier in the week. Other than that, I'm super glad that our midweek studies have started up again at church! I have a bit more preparation to do for the Bible study lessons this semester, but I'm hoping to stay a week ahead so I have plenty of time to prepare well. This is my first time to lead a study without a guide, which makes me a little nervous. I'm back with the students on Wednesday nights, so I'm excited to have more time to connect with the girls. ヅ

So the funniest thing happened the other day. At least I think it's funny. I hope you'll get a chuckle out of it, too! I got an email from someone who stumbled across my blog & wondered if I was a childhood friend of his. {Hi, Steve! I hope you don't mind me sharing this!!} He discovered the post where I lamented about Phil Garner not being picked for the Astros manager position. His email made me laugh because he said, "Not sure what’s weirder, the fact that I was searching for foam fingers, or the fact that I'm contacting you..." Searching for foam fingers?! That totally made me laugh out loud. Several times. {Thank you for that, Steve. I'm sorry I'm not the friend you were looking for!} For the record, I'm totally not making fun of him. I could definitely see myself searching for the same type of randomness!

As for the song today, I have a little confession to make. The one that I actually listened to the most is a different Daniel Bashta song that I've already posted. I'm not even sure why I listened to it the most, and I like today's song better. So I decided to post it for you instead. My favorite line is:

I finally found a life worth living for
It's not's Yours


Friday, January 20, 2012

"Seize the Day"

(by Carolyn Arends) Seize the Day - Sieze the Day and Other Stories

Seize The Day (live) by Carolyn Arends on Grooveshark

Yes, I know I posted something less than 24 hours ago that most of you haven't even seen. I just thought I'd put my two cents in about a little something that has caused a bit of an uproar on the internet. I've seen a lot of heated debate over the article "Don't Carpe Diem", & I practically wrote a blog post on Mel's post on fb {sorry, Mel!} I decided that I would go ahead & write a blog post in case anyone cares to read more of what I have to say on the subject. Here's what I said there, with a little more detail...

I think people are missing the point. They're parking on one side of it & not understanding each other's side. As someone who has made similar statements to young moms, I totally agree that time goes by way too fast! But in my defense (& I'm sure I'm speaking for most older moms who have made those statements), they have certainly never intended to offend, shame, or make a mom feel inadequate. I am so glad that young moms are able to be honest about their feelings these days, because I remember feeling quite alone when I had similar feelings myself. I thought I was the only one who felt that way. And there were moments when I thought that there must be something wrong with me, because other moms made it all look so glorious. And it was stinking hard!

On the other side of that phase of life now, when I've made a "carpe diem"-type statement, it really has been a heartfelt attempt at trying to give some perspective to a young mom. A "this too shall pass"-type of thing. It isn't possible to enjoy every single moment ~ especially the puke, sleepless nights, & "8 gallons of urine" {thank you, Sara!} And seriously, you'd be a little insane to actually enjoy that!

I think people see all the negative stuff that Melton writes at the beginning of the article & don't finish reading. Or they get so heated up over the first part that they fail to see the point at the end. It's about enjoying their sweet breath on your neck as they fall asleep in your arms, smelling their heads after a bath, the cute things they say...It's about noticing & savoring those moments, because they are more than worth all the other crap {literally & figuratively} that is so hard about that stage of life.

I certainly don't know everything, and I still have a few years left with my kids at home. I'm not real sure how I'd feel if an older parent told me to carpe diem in the middle of an unenjoyable teenager/parent situation. I can only speak to what I know from my own experience & the experience of other moms who are past that phase.

Regarding the preschool years: I promise, as hard as they may be, you really will look back & wish for just one more day at the train park.

Or one more tea party with a girl dressed up as a princess.


Thursday, January 19, 2012

"House of God, Forever"

(by Jon Foreman) House of God, Forever - Limbs and Branches

The House Of God, Forever by Jon Foreman on Grooveshark

There are several reasons to celebrate today!!

The first & most important reason is that Christopher's scans were clear! It may not make sense that I waited until now to tell y'all, but I had a few reasons: 1) most (if not all) of you are facebook &/or IRL friends ~ so I figured you might already know. 2) I wanted to wait until we got the full report from Dr L. He reviewed the scans with us at the appointment the afternoon of the scans, but he hadn't received the radiologist report yet. Christopher called the next day & learned that the report was negative for mets, so we're good for 6 months! & 3) I needed one more post in order to reach a particular milestone...

This is my 500th post!

And the last reason for celebration today {& the reason for today's song}: I completed my first scarf!! I actually finished it on Monday, but again with the whole celebration situation. :) I showed you a picture on Saturday, but I ended up starting all over because I decided that I'd enjoy it more (therefore wear it more) if it weren't so wide. Anyways, I know y'all may not be as excited about the scarf as I am, but please bear with me just a few more moments while I explain why it's the reason for today's song. I don't know if all knitters name their projects, or if Melissa is the only one. But I love the idea! And because I'm a weirdo, my names have to be related to a song. My first scarf is "Fields of Green" from my favorite part of today's song:

He makes me rest
In fields of green
With quiet streams

I am now working on a scarf for my baby girl. She picked out the yarn on Monday, & I'm loving how it looks so much that I've already asked her if I can borrow it some time! I'll wait to tell you the name, but I will tell you that it's from an FM Static song. That narrows it down a bit! :) Maybe one day I'll move beyond scarves, but I figure maybe I'll learn one new stitch at a time & practice a bit before trying something else. We'll see...


Wednesday, January 18, 2012

"Living Room"

(by Mark Harris) Living Room - Windows and Walls

Living Room by Mark Harris on Grooveshark

I finally have a chance to tell y'all about my new living room furniture! We have needed to replace it for several years now, but other things have always taken priority. Our poor sofa only had one side of one cushion that wasn't terribly worn. I should've taken a picture before we got rid of everything, but I found this one from right after we moved in (hence the box & stuff behind the love seat & such):

We started replacing everything just before Thanksgiving, but the Christmas decorations were up by the time we got it all. I'm just now getting around to finishing the room & taking pictures! Though it isn't completely finished {ahem...fireplace niche}, this will do for now! {Oh, & please ignore Davy Crockett, the card on top of the entertainment center, Pepper, & whatever other random objects I failed to get out of sight before taking pics!} Without further ado, this is the room where I'd love to have you join me for a cup of coffee...

Our first purchase was the sofa & love seat. Though I had planned to buy new, I found out that our friends Bob & Beth {you may remember them from the post where we paid off our debt} were selling their like-new leather sofa & love seat. I wasn't really wanting leather, but Chris was. I couldn't remember what their furniture looked like, so I sent Chris by their house after work one day. He liked them (& the price was right), so he said we'd take them. For anyone who knows me, you must be shocked right now. I know I still am! I guess it's just evidence of God working in me to not feel the need to be in control of every little thing!

Then came the entertainment center...We knew of one that we could get from our friend's mom (who is an interior designer & has access to furniture at wholesale prices). I decided to look around before making the commitment, & I fell in love with a different unit. Without even trying to bargain, the salesman offered another 20% off the price on the tag. It was still a couple hundred dollars more than the unit I could get from Naomi's mom, though. And I felt like Chris should see it & decide with me. We drove over there that night after Chris got off work, but most of the lights were off in the store. We decided to try the door just in case. As we were walking towards it, we saw my salesman walking toward us. He looked surprised to see me & disappointedly said, "We're closed!" He explained that they decided to close early since no customers were in the store, and it was the day before Thanksgiving. Then he said that they were having a Black Friday sale & pulled a flyer out of his pocket saying, "I knew that the Lord had me grab this flyer for a reason." Turns out, they were going to have 36% off everything if we got there by 8:00 on Friday. We had hoped to get him to give us the unit for 30% off the sales price, but we didn't even have to bargain with him for the 36%! It ended up costing less than the unit we were originally going to get, and it was nice going in that Friday morning knowing exactly how much we were going to pay & without having to negotiate!

Chris found the TV. It didn't really matter to me what we got, as long as it was bigger than our 14-year-old 27" box TV. My main goal was for him to be able to read the guide & subtitles. By the end of the day, the poor guy's good eye is so tired from straining to see all day, so he was unable to read anything on the old TV. He would occasionally push the guide button, forgetting that it was useless. And if we were watching something with subtitles, I had to narrate for him. Fortunately, we aren't into foreign film. We do occasionally watch a show where someone briefly speaks in another language, or there's a time & place or something. And game scores were impossible to read as well, though that wasn't really a concern for him. I, on the other hand, could barely read the scores, and my vision is perfect! Anyways, I wish I could tell you some details about the TV, but all I know is it's a 51" & had good reviews on several websites. There seemed to be a big price jump once you got bigger than a 51", so we thought it would suffice.

I saved the best for last: my super cute chair...We had looked at furniture a few days before we bought the sofa & love seat, and we found a glider that had a colorful pattern on it. We liked the idea of a patterned chair, because it would go with a lot of different solid-colored couches. So we decided that I should find the chair I wanted first & go from there. I know that may seem a little backwards, but y'all know how I feel about rocking chairs! {Do you remember my old chair & the tragedy of '09?} A rocker or glider really was the only thing I just had to have in a new living room set. I really didn't care too much about the rest, though obviously I wanted it to look nice. On the day that Chris was set to go look at Bob & Beth's furniture, I stopped by another furniture store to look around. I ended up finding the perfect little swivel rocker that makes me happy! =) Then we got a coupon in the mail, so we went back & bought another one ('cuz everyone kept stealing my chair)!

As for the rest of the room...

Thanks to Pinterest, I found a tutorial for the cornice board (that Chris & Brian helped me make), & the curtains came from IKEA (for super cheap).

I accessorized with stuff I already had & a couple of 1/2 price items from Hobby Lobby. {I'm sure I'll continue to move things around & look for other inexpensive items to replace things I'm not in love with.} My dad technically owns the piano that was Mema A's, but he let us use it years ago & is fine with us hanging on to it. {& I love how nicely it fits under the staircase! I should also point out that the piece of artwork I mentioned awhile back from Studio JRU matches the chairs quite well!} The coffee table & end table came from a little furniture store with the nicest saleslady in the world. {Random side note: she asked about Christopher's eye, and it turns out her husband's niece had OM. She asked if he'd mind if she put him on her prayer list at church. That's sweet, huh?!} For the record, I'm aware that the houndstooth/plaid throw doesn't exactly match, but we already had it & love how soft it is. {Plus, I haven't learned to knit well enough to make an afghan yet, & Pepper likes it!}

That about wraps it up...

I do have to add that from the beginning of the process, we felt God's guidance. I know that may sound silly, but it's true! We have entrusted our finances to Him, and we ask for His guidance when it comes to what we spend our money on. Furniture can be a substantial sum of money, and we wanted to use it wisely. We ended up getting a sofa, love seat, 2 super cute chairs, entertainment center, coffee table, end table and TV for barely more the list price of the entertainment center alone. Even with the extra chair, we came in nearly $500 under budget! And yes, Dave Ramsey, we paid cash! ;)


Monday, January 16, 2012

"Inside Out"

(by ZOEgirl) Inside Out - Different Kind of Free

Inside Out (Different Kind Of Free Album Version) by ZOEgirl on Grooveshark

I'm sitting here in the Med Center waiting for Mister Christopher to be finished with his scans. I love technological advances that have made it possible for me to blog here just as easily as I can at home! I have books, magazines, & knitting as a distraction, but I can also facebook- & blog-stalk to my heart's content! ;) Anyways, because of my sweet boy's birthday last week, some of the items on today's list are a couple of weeks old. But again, y'all probably don't care when the instances occurred, especially if I'm still grateful that they occurred, right?! Alrighty then, today I am {still} quite grateful for the following...

  1. Friends who give advice about seasonal dry skin :)
  2. Avocados
  3. Lunch with Nicole
  4. Amy's E-stim machine to help with the worst back pain ever
  5. Teenage girls who watch My Little Pony on a Saturday morning :)
  6. God's protection over my babies during a tornado warning
  7. Skype dates with Sally & Sarah in England
  8. Lunch with my sweet boy on his birthday
  9. A new hobby {I'm almost done with my first scarf!!}
  10. Bloggy friends who are willing to help with said new hobby
  11. Surgeons who take good care of my mister
  12. Jana {& her cute baby boy} helping me pass the time in the waiting room during Christopher's surgery
  13. Cody's constant humming :)
  14. A new semester of Bible study with my baby brother
  15. A new semester of MOPS
  16. Food & games with my girl Misty & her fiancé Rob :)
  17. All of the time I get to spend with my baby brother
  18. A chance to sing with my dad
  19. Visiting with a 73-year-old lady who still has a desire to learn & grow from unexpected life circumstances
  20. Running errands with my baby girl
  21. Starbucks gift cards on days when I'm out of caffeinated coffee at home
  22. Continued peace while awaiting scans
  23. A warm place to sit in the sun when I forgot my sweater
  24. Comfy chairs in outpatient waiting rooms
  25. Technology

What are you grateful for today?


Saturday, January 14, 2012

"The Prayer"

(by Céline Dion, feat. Andrea Bocelli) The Prayer - Sogno (Non EU Version)

The Prayer (Feat. Andrea Bocelli) by Céline Dion on Grooveshark

This week has gone by so s-l-o-w-l-y...That's normally a good thing, because I like to enjoy life & not let it pass by too quickly. But blah blah blah. We're almost there, though...

To help pass the time at appointments & such this week, I took up a new hobby! I am now officially a knitter. OK, well I wouldn't quite call myself a knitter yet, but I'm learning. I'm working on a scarf, and I've started over twice. Don't look too closely, but here's what I've accomplished so far:

Bible study has started up with my baby brother, so it was nice to see the guys in his small group again. It was so neat to see the passion in one guy as he talked about God calling him to minister to the guys he used to be in gangs with. He is spending a lot of time in the Word while he's locked up, & he asks some really deep questions as a result of that time. It's pretty cool! A funny thing happened when I was signing in...I wrote my maiden name. What?! I don't know if it's because of the facilitator (who refers to me as "Little [maiden name]") or what. You'd think after 15 years of not going by it that I wouldn't accidentally write it, huh? Can I use Christopher's excuse & blame it on the radiation?! I don't know if I've told you how protective Aaron is of me when I'm there, but it's so cute! He may be twice my size, but he's still my baby brother. So to see him be all "big brotherly" makes me smile! :)

The Spring semester of MOPS started again yesterday! I enjoyed catching up with the ladies at my table. We also had a new member at our table yesterday, & she happens to be a neighbor of mine! {& crazy thing, Amanda: she used to be YOUR neighbor!}

My girl Misty {who just so happens to get phone calls from outer space!*} came over last night with her fiancé! Rob got The Settlers of Catan for Christmas. I've been hearing a lot about the game, but this was my first time to play it. I don't quite understand it, but I somehow won. 'Cuz I'm awesome like that. {*As for the whole "phone calls from space" thing, I'm 100% for real. She's a flight controller for NASA, & one of the astronauts actually called her cell phone from the ISS one night. If that's not super cool, I don't know what is!}

I'm singing today's song with my dad tomorrow (in English & a lower key, ftr), which is why I've listened to it the most. I didn't really know it before, though I've heard it a few times through the years. Wish me luck... ;)

Okey doke, I'm off to see Aaron! I hope y'all have a super great weekend!! ♥


Thursday, January 12, 2012

"Can't See for Lookin'"

(by Red Garland)

I Can't See for Lookin' by Red Garland on Grooveshark

I thought I'd give y'all a little update on Mister Christopher's cataract surgery. It really wasn't a big deal, but we appreciate everyone's concern & prayers! I hadn't really mentioned it to very many people, because it was so minor compared to any of his other surgeries!

Anyways, the surgery was quick & relatively pain-free. We got there a little before noon & were home before Cody got home from school. {Jana & Caleb kept me company while I waited, which was quite nice!} Chris is now the owner of a lens implant, complete with ID card & everything. Seriously, we have an official card with the model number & everything. Do all types of implants come with an ID card & model number? It's wallet-sized, though I don't suppose he'll actually carry it around with him. I really don't know why we need it, but I'll file it with his incredibly thick stack of medical papers.

One of the eye drops he has to use for a week causes some pain, but other than that he's good! He can't see any better, as expected. In fact, he didn't even realize that the shield he had to wear over his eye was actually clear until he looked in the mirror last night. [Update: his peripheral vision had actually improved a little by this afternoon, but the following couple of paragraphs still apply...] It kinda sucks that he had to have surgery that won't help him on a daily basis, but I suppose if it helps the doctors then it's worth it. Or maybe not...

I don't remember if I've ever mentioned to y'all that he is actually considering enucleation (removing his eye). At this point, he is seeing two doctors every two months. He has had laser treatments, steroid injections, vitrectomy surgery & now cataract surgery, in addition to the original plaque surgery to sterilize the tumor. All to save an eye that he can't even see out of. Had we known all of the facts in the beginning, we quite possibly would've gone with enucleation in the first place. We didn't know that 85% of OM patients treated with radiation eventually lose their sight. There is also some inaccurate information out there stating that there's a higher chance of metastasis with enucleation (which we now know has not proven to be true). Anyways, we have spent a lot of time & money on doctor visits & different treatments for an eye that is essentially useless.

He wanted to give the cataract surgery a shot, because there was a possibility of some improvement to his peripheral vision. He didn't want to have any regrets about not trying everything that he could. We have no idea if insurance would cover enucleation at this point, but he plans on talking to his ocular oncologist about it at his next visit.

On a much heavier note, I ask for you to join me in praying for my first OM friend Sara. I am so very sad to say that her husband Gregg lost his 5-year battle with Ocular Melanoma on Tuesday. My heart is broken for her. He was only 40 years old, and today would've been their 4th anniversary. They have been a huge part of the OM community and a vast source of information & encouragement to me personally. I appreciate your prayers, and I'm sure that she (& their family) would, too.


Tuesday, January 10, 2012

"Find Your Wings"

(by Mark Harris) Find Your Wings - The Line Between The Two

My sweet boy is eleven years old today! Cody is such a joy to me, and I am so grateful that I get to be his mom! Today's list has just a few of the things I love about him. I am thankful that Cody...

  1. Loves his mom! ♥
  2. Is honest
  3. Wishes happiness was contagious
  4. Cares for others
  5. Is a leader
  6. Is sweet to little kids
  7. Makes good friend choices
  8. Isn't too proud to serve others
  9. Likes to make people laugh
  10. Is kind
  11. Is compassionate
  12. Thinks of a solution for everything
  13. Is responsible
  14. Watches The Science Channel
  15. Is a great student
  16. Still likes to snuggle with his mom
  17. Is confident
  18. Says the sweetest things
  19. Isn't afraid to try new things {finally!}
  20. Is gentle
  21. Creates brain games that he sends via email
  22. Tries out his comedy bits on us :)
  23. Is nice to his sister ♥
  24. Loves God
  25. Desires to minister to others

Is there someone who brings joy to your heart? If so, please tell me about them! :)


Monday, January 9, 2012

"Baby Got Book"

(by Dan "Southpaw" Smith) Baby Got Book - The Caucasian Invasion

I know this song is cheesy, but it makes me laugh! I hope it doesn't offend anyone! ;)  Anyways, moving on to the real reason for the post...

If you're fb friends with my mister, you may have seen him make fun of me with a post that went something like this, "‎Amy just asked me a deep theological question: 'Is it wrong to covet a Bible?'"

You see, I have been wanting a New Inductive Study Bible since the Precepts workshop I went to last Fall. The problem was the fact that I had just received a new Bible for my birthday. I had asked for one (shortly after a friend referred to my super cute pink & brown one as a "little girl" Bible) & am very happy with my ESV. {& it has the same insides as Laurien's, so that makes me happy! I will never forget the look on her face that day at church when we turned our pages at exactly the same time, looked at each other, looked down at our Bibles, leaned over to compare words on both pages, & then looked at the page numbers!} But I haven't had a new study Bible since college. And the NISB is NASB, so it's a different version than my birthday Bible. Though I totally know I can use different versions by going to websites like YouVersion, Blue Letter Bible, etc., I like to write in mine.

Gosh, I sound like an addict trying to justify my need for more...

Anyways, I ended up using a gift card from Christmas to order one, & I got it today!!!!!!

& I've already started marking it up {going through some of the key words in the Bible study that starts next week!}

Isn't it super?!


Saturday, January 7, 2012

"This Is Just So Beautiful" {again}

(by Jenny & Tyler) This Is Just So Beautiful - Faint Not

I hope y'all have had a wonderful first week of the year! Mine was pretty low-key, and I liked it! Other than the rescheduled scans & some lower back pain, my week has been good! I had lunch with my new friend Nicole yesterday, who coincidentally is the person who took the picture I mentioned way back before Christmas. One that possibly involved me, tighty-whiteys, & tramp stamps...

Hee hee hee! Here's the entire picture...

They made me pretend like it was a booty crack! ;)

& this is Clyde (Nicole's husband) wearing his super great gift:

Have you heard of Handerpants? They are amazing! ;) There are hundreds of uses for them, some of which are...sanitary handshakes, texting, cruising, the elderly, and night blogging...? You should go to their website just so you can see the pictures! :D

So I had the weirdest thing happen the other day...I sent a text to my friend Sloan, and as the text was sending I noticed that her name disappeared at the top of the screen & was replaced with her mother's name. What?! She said that it was her mom's number like five years ago. But I didn't have her mom's number stored in my phone until a few months ago, and I never had it stored as that number. Weird, huh?! Has that ever happened to anyone else before?

We celebrated my sweet boy's birthday with his friend Alex last night! It was sort of an impromptu celebration. With his birthday being so close to Christmas, I usually don't plan anything until closer to the end of the month. But Alex was already planning on spending the night, so Cody asked if we could just go ahead and celebrate a few days early. I made him an ice cream cake, & the boys watched a movie. Nothing too exciting, but it's how Cody wanted to celebrate. I'm not even a week into the year & have already disqualified myself from Mother of the Year award. {Now the pressure's off!} Because of my back ache & the fact that I only had like one day to prepare, I didn't get to pick up any birthday cups, plates, etc. And I couldn't even bend down to look in the cabinet where I store the candles & such. I could've sworn I had two #1 candles, but I could only find one. So we used candles that added up to 11. 'Cuz we're industrious like that! :)

As for today's song...Yes, I realize that I just posted it the other day. But I love it & have been listening to it a lot this week. And in case you didn't listen to it then, I thought maybe you'd like to listen to it now! :) I already mentioned a couple of my favorite parts of this song the other day, but I also love the reminder to "close my eyes, breathe in deep." I need that reminder on a regular basis...on a beautiful day & and on a frustrating day. I think my absolute favorite part of the song is:

I felt forgiveness in the deep recesses of my soul
I was so empty, now I'm full
I'm whole

Alrighty, we have one final bit of Christmas celebrating today! We haven't seen my mom & step-dad yet, so we're getting together with them & my brother's family this afternoon! Then maybe I'll get around to taking my Christmas stuff down! I think this is the latest I've ever left it up!!

I hope you're having a super great weekend! ♥


Thursday, January 5, 2012

"Inside of Me"

(by Jason Morant)

Inside Of Me by Jason Morant on Grooveshark

Oh, sweet RR Mama, how I wish I was remaining as positive as you think! In all honesty though, I was pretty frustrated yesterday afternoon...In case y'all are unaware, Christopher's scans have been rescheduled for the 16th. For the record, there has only been one follow-up scan that has happened on the day it was originally supposed to happen, & that was when the wrong scans were ordered. I should just accept this as a part of life, but each time I hope things will be different than they have been in the past! {I guess I should state that it's technically my fault that scans were rescheduled this time, but I'll get to that in a minute!} Ya, I know, drama drama drama. I'm really not one of those people who always has some type of drama in their life. But the more I think about it, the more I'm afraid I have become one of those people...

Anyways, I really was handling these scans a little better than in the past. I've been eating fine, and there were only a couple of times when I sorta had that panicky feeling. At about 1:45 yesterday afternoon I thought, "OK, I've made it this far. If I can just make it through the next 24 hours..." Even if we received bad news, at least we'd know. That part of it would be over with, and God would help us get through whatever was next. It's the waiting that is so nerve wracking. Have I mentioned that I'm not good at waiting?

On a positive note, he'll be having his lungs scanned this time. Due to the miscode last time, Dr L didn't get a look at his lungs. And we found out last week that he hadn't been planning on looking at them this time, either. He was only going to do an MRI that would examine Christopher's liver. A liver MRI is super {in fact, a lot of people in the OM community prefer MRI over CT because of the radiation exposure} But it's just not enough. {This is where the "my fault" part comes in, though maybe it's not really my fault since the doctor should be taking a look at Christopher's lungs therefore should've scheduled an x-ray at the very least??} I questioned why Dr L wasn't going to examine his lungs, so Chris spent a week going back & forth with Dr L's nurse & is now scheduled for a CT of his chest, abdomen, & pelvis (which is what he normally had up until last summer). I think I'm OK with that.


So there you have we play the Pre-Authorization Game (that I've mentioned before). Ironically, the MRI was approved the first time it was requested, so we would've actually been able to have it today. Go figure!

Anyways, I was upset about it yesterday, but I'm OK today. Just thought I'd let you know. God is Sovereign, and He knew that it wouldn't happen today. He loves me enough to help me get through my impatience. He knows what the future holds, and He is in control. And if I'd quit griping (& resisting things beyond my control), maybe He could do some more work inside of me to make me into someone He can use! I'll close with a couple of lines from today's song:

Now I walk along side my Father
Without fear of what may come tomorrow


Wednesday, January 4, 2012

"This Is Just So Beautiful"

(by Jenny & Tyler) This Is Just So Beautiful - Faint Not

This Is Just So Beautiful by Jenny & Tyler on Grooveshark

I have really enjoyed doing this list of things I'm thankful for. It's great to always have it in the back of my mind. Throughout the day, little things will happen that I'm not sure I would've paid much attention to before. I'm constantly thinking, "I need to write that on my list!" There really are so many little gifts that God gives each of us throughout the day, and I am so thankful for them! Today I am so grateful for...

  1. A safe trip last week
  2. Coffee with Laura & a new friend
  3. A good visit with the mom of one of Cody's friends
  4. The kids getting to hang out with their friends over the break
  5. Riding bikes with my sweet boy
  6. A sweet card from a friend
  7. Baked goods from my adorable little neighbors
  8. A nice night with friends on New Year's Eve
  9. Seven-Layer Bars
  10. A thoughtful email from my friend in England
  11. Going to church on New Year's Day ~ what a lovely way to start the year!
  12. A big bear hug from my baby brother ♥
  13. Games with friends on New Year's Day
  14. Laughter
  15. Homemade Chex Mix
  16. My super cute sleep mask
  17. Finally meeting someone with OM face-to-face!
  18. An email from the mom of a high school friend
  19. A chance to see Hugo for free! {we were given some movie tickets for Christmas!}
  20. Getting back into our school routine
  21. The ability to climb stairs when an elevator isn't working
  22. Only having to climb four flights of stairs
  23. A counselor who encourages me with scripture
  24. Less scanxiety than I usually have around this time {scans are Thursday}
  25. The joy I feel when I think of remaining in God's love

Today's song is one of my new favorites. Y'all know how I tend to let things weigh me down, so I like how this song talks about waving goodbye to those things. & I especially love the line that says, "But the sparrows and the roses remind me there's still so much good." There really is so much good! What's on your list of good things today?