Thursday, May 19, 2011

"Someone Worth Dying For"

(by MIKESCHAIR) Someone Worth Dying For - Someone Worth Dying For - Single



So I'm finally able to be at home for the day, and boy did I need it desperately! I've needed some time to simply be alone with God. I am so thankful for His faithfulness to me. He has blessed me with His presence when I really needed Him. Psalm 40 was on my reading plan for yesterday (I was a couple of days behind, with work & all), and it really ministered to me today. Once again, He has proven that only when I get the focus off myself & back onto Him, can I have the peace He longs to give me.

He has also blessed me with wonderful friends (both bloggy & IRL). Y'all have lifted me up this week, and I am so grateful for your encouragement through comments, phone calls, emails and most of all your prayers. I know that some of you have been concerned about how I'm processing things, so I wanted to let y'all know that I have an appointment with a counselor at the end of the month. I've needed to see a counselor for a long time, but I haven't been to see one in nearly 17 years (& then, very briefly). For the record, that's way too long. I think everyone can benefit from some therapy, but I've always had other things that I thought were more important. God has helped me a lot through the years, but sometimes He uses counselors to help us work through stuff. I am confident that He has directed me to the one I am going to see.

I was all by myself at work yesterday (in the office that I usually share with another lady), so I turned the radio to KSBJ. I really haven't listened to it in awhile, because I normally have my iPod on. But it was so refreshing! I needed to hear the uplifting songs and Biblical encouragement. A listener had called in at one point, and they encouraged her with scripture. Another time, the DJ said something along the lines of, "No matter what you're going through, God never leaves you or forsakes you." It's just nice to hear encouraging things like that throughout the day. I made a playlist of a bunch of the songs that ministered to me yesterday. There were a lot of reminders of God's love and faithfulness, and it was good for my soul.



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Believe it or not, there were several songs I couldn't find for the player. In particular, today's song. I absolutely love MIKESCHAIR! I'm not sure why I haven't posted anything of theirs before. If you haven't heard them, you should definitely check them out! I think this song is just beautiful, and I needed the reminder this week. Brooke took the words out of my mouth when she talked about having a couple of breakthroughs last week that helped her love herself more. Then she spent the second half of her week down in the dumps & unable to find nice things to say to herself. I've totally been there, too! But God is lifting me out of the "pit of destruction" (to quote the psalm I mentioned earlier). And as would be fitting for me, He is using music (along with His Word & His Spirit, of course) to do so. I hope you are encouraged by these songs today (if you're in a place where you can listen to them). I'll close with some words from today's song:

He wants you to see
That you're not just some wandering soul
That can't be seen and can't be known
But you've gotta believe, you've gotta believe
That you are someone worth dying for


Amy

2 comments:

Brooke said...

wow. never heard this one before. thanks for sharing.

you have an email. read and respond. don't make me coming looking for you.

Amanda said...

Wow. Those lyrics are beautiful. Praying for you Amy. This may sound strange with this post, but...You are such an encouragement! It is a nice reminder that we all struggle, and at one time or another, (or sometimes at some point everyday)we feel unworthy of love, or unlovable. Your constant focus and redirection back to God in these times is an encouragement to me. Thank you!

Remember, you are VERY loved. By Him and by me!!!

xo