Thursday, September 3, 2009

"Praise You in this Storm"

(by Casting Crowns) Casting Crowns - Lifesong - Praise You In This Storm



"I was sure by now
God, You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

Pre-chorus:
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

Chorus:
And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You?

Pre-chorus
Chorus

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth...

Chorus..."

Exactly one year ago, I was enjoying a normal morning at home ~ reading my Bible with a cup of coffee. Little did I know that in a few hours, my husband would come home with news that would rock me to the core. What we thought was such a minor thing, a floater, was actually eye cancer. Talk about life coming to a halt in an instant. Sometimes even now, I can be going about life as usual. Even enjoying it. Then all of a sudden, I feel my heart stop, all the air get sucked out of my lungs, & I remember that there's this awful thing called cancer.

And my husband has it.

And it sucks.

I don't cry as often as I used to. I even had a conversation about it a couple of weeks ago, where I just stated the facts without even tearing up. Other times, though, I'll be driving down the road, or in a worship service at church, or at the vet (yes, at the vet ~ how awkward!)... & I'll just start to cry without warning. This move has been a nice distraction, and I have found myself planning for a future with my husband. I haven't done much of that this past year. I try to be positive. I try to believe that it won't spread or that God will heal him. But in reality, that may not happen; & sometimes it's hard to hope for the best. Lately, I'll think that, yes, I have this beautiful new house, and it's exciting. But when it's all said & done, my husband still has cancer.

I don't know how people can get through a situation like this without God. I'm having a hard time, even with Him right by my side! But I have hope in Him, and I am so grateful for that! And if I thought I loved my husband and family before, this year has shown me just how special they are to me. I made another post early this morning [click "older post" at the bottom this post] that combines all of the cancer posts over this past year into one neat & tidy {but super long} post. If you know me personally, or you've been reading my blog for awhile, don't bore yourself by reading through it all! But, definitely check out the song, because it's awesome!

2 comments:

GlowinGirl said...

My sister's husband was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer last year. It was like the bottom dropped out from under them at first, but God is good and has helped them through this trial. He is now in remission, and they are working on the addition that they had to cancel last year because of the cancer. It may return (his kind always does), but they remain hopeful through it. And their faith is an even more beautiful thing now.

Cathy said...

That IS a great song. Praying for you and your husband ~